Interests:Soccer, Anime (I LUV anime!!!) O_o, anyway, I also like playing video games, and do some art. Not like my sister though, she can do pretty much anything. Well...hm.....can't think of anything else.OH WAIT, I would like to make some new friends....:) Well hope to hear from you. Expertise:The Oyabun Organization, if you want in, talk to K.O.: Kurayami Oyabun. Occupation:Other Industry:Other
As my title states....yeah I am those things. People might ask, physically? No, although I could use a massage, it's more like my mentally tired. You might be asking what....tired of just being there, feeling like I'm nothing special, or have someone special. People might be saying, yes you are special. If you say so, then it must be true for you. I chuckle at this statement as I take a sip of my cosmopolitian drink, yeah I needed it. Sometimes, you just feel mentally tired.....especially when a loved one just doesn't realize how he's hurtin you, even though I've talked to him before about it.
Our relationship is based on communication, and the need to hear one another. *chuckles* I remember this one time he told me, "I have to hear from you, or else I get sad." same thing could be said about me...and yet, when he becomes busy...I do not hear from him for a good 3 days....wonderful how words are words and actions show so much more. I'm tired of being sad when I don't hear from him...it's gotten to the point where mentally I'm telling myself, start putting the distance, start rebuilding that wall around you heart....and truth be told...*sighs sadly* it worked....I don't talk to him often...I barely say anthing...and I don't text until he does. I wonder if he's noticed...*smiles sadly* I don't think so....damn I didn't want to cry again, I've cried too much. Sad, that I guarantee you that I've cried more than what my twin does who is in an actual live within arms reach relationship. Just goes to show you how pathetic I am to fall into these kind of things for a second time, worse when I opened my heart to that individual....and it just keeps getting hurt. Its worse, when he reminds you of when we actually started to talk or when we first met one another, because it was so hard to rebuild that wall around your heart, only to be crumbled down when his words say something....like I told him, "he has a way with words," and silently I would tell myself, "yet his actions show so much more." But that's the thing....he barely shows any...not until I fess up my feelings....and don't give me this bull crap that he's a guy, they don't know...bull....everyone knows when you stop saying alot...when you just quiet yourself...when you just are done feel sad and tired of crying. I guess...for now....the love is still there...but it's breaking...slowly and painfully.
secondly...or rather thirdly (thank you H2O...you have doused that cosmopolitian, I felt that last drop of bacardi XD) I hate it when people use me......whether from a family member..aka lil sis, or from a person who is suppose to care...sadly aka bf.....you get tired....tired of trying, tired of hold back emotion..just overall tired mentally. So.....my cosmopolitian is officially done...meaning this weblog is done...and now onwards to a martini of QC finest H2O.....good night for now.
Whoa...it's been forever!!! It's been awhile since I've gone onto xanga, nevertheless I will always come here ^,^ C'mon this is where my blogging started...ah going back to where it started. WOO!!! lol Anyway, yeah alot of stuff has happened...but as of now I will only say this: Hope everyone had a happy new year!! and also that....tonight, Ladies we gotta party it up Las Vegas Style XD. Although it might not be alot of people we still will enjoy ourselves. I'm sure alot of stuff has happened and we haven't gotten around to the chisme. lol Anyway, talk to everyone later and hope to see some of you ladies tonight.
K.O.
Also, Lori.....Ichigo sucks, he got to the same level as me in dead space last night TToTT...oh well, he's in a way better position than me...:(( I cry...oh well...HA HA Ha he's going to meet his first regenerator. HAHAHAH >:D hahaha. Anyway talk to you later and see ya tonight :D
what...to write about...I have no idea ^o^. ooooo FALL IS HERE!!!! WOOOOO!!!!! Now I wait for snow...XD I want's my SNOW!!!!!!!! hm...what to write...no idea. At this point nothing...so I leave you LOL
There are times in our life, where we question who we are, what is our purpose, and mostly why. The one word alone, why, has so many depths to it...ranging from carefree to the depths of your soul. Anyway, just something my mind decided it wanted to be said...anyway I heard this music video this morning, and me and bon-bon..yeah bon bon was enthusiased about this video that was awesome. It has a sense of saddness, maybe that's why she kept kissing the computer when I found it on youtube. It is sad, but this is the mission: Taiyo Hakai I want you to make a music video for this music, remodify it...make it better to a point where I will cry when I see it with the music T^T Because on this one it made me sad..not necessarily cry. So your duty is to make me cry!! ^o^ lol Anyway talk to you guys later and hope you and lori had a good first day of new classes ^^
